Last year, same time, we had this huge transformation and planning phase including all kind of tools like vision boards, books and workshops which helped us reflecting our values and passions, defining our goals etc.
The both of us and our lifes changed during that time. We started to change directions, following our hearts, chasing the sun.
As we all know, life is what happens while we are making plans. So we got pregnant and things changed again. Even though, life is a constant change and transformation, it still scares us. But things that scare us, make us grow. With change comes growth. What helped us during this year full of twists and turns was the flexibility and openness of our minds. We are ready to welcome challenges and changes in our lifes, because we learned that in the end it is you that gets to decide, whether to let the experiences you didnt quite plan or expect that way, get you down and let you fall back or, instead, to use them as a source of reflection, reconsideration, acceptance and personal growth.
So, same time, new year, around Christmas and New Year’s Eve, again we are using this powerful, silent days to look back, but most of all, to take those experiences into the present moment. Being satisfied with what IS, right now, right here. And to look ahead, making new plans, vision boards, goals for 2017. And we are looking forward to all the experinces we will make along the way, to all the surprises and challenges that will cross our path, to the growth we will make. Everyone on its own. As an individual. With the love and support of each other. Together. As a family.
I never saw myself as a mom, having my own family. And being pregnant has always been kind of a horror scenario to me, since it is a situation one cannot control or “stop“ whenever you don’t feel like it. Scary considering I always liked to be the one in control.
Now that we got pregnant, I am so absolutely thankful for this powerful and transformative experience. I am forced to face issues, fears, people, situations I would have otherwise pushed aside. I am learning everyday anew what it means to accept, to let go, and how liberating this can be.
Pregnancy is transformative, obviously physically, but also in so many ways mentally – I can see myself growing, beautifully transforming and becoming stronger and clearer in my path. I try to live every single day of pregnancy consciously, soaking every part of it in. The pleasant and the unpleasant parts of it.
It’s such a powerful process and I have never felt so much faith, love, acceptance, but also vulnerabilty and sensibility in my life before. I am widely open. Ready to transform. Ready to open a new chapter. Embracing life.
I usually hate christmas. The consumer society. People acting. Family gatherings. Everything about it.
This year I almost skipped visiting my family. But I knew I would make a few people happy just by showing up. And there would be a lot of drinking. How bad can it be?
It was good. No stress. No presents. It was super relaxed. And to my surprise I really enjoyed it. For the first time in years.
I was never much of a family person. I think they are awesome, don’t get me wrong, I just felt like a “black sheep”.
This is about to change I feel. I guess since I will be a dad in a few weeks myself – this is still very unreal to me haha – and the fact I am starting my own little family, it plays an increasing role in my life.